WENDY

Here I am, a freshly graduated diploma holder, about to head off for a two-month vacation followed by the next three years of university. I have taken the final step of my polytechnic life—from being a student to a graduate.

I had two scholarship interviews after my graduation ceremony, which signified the potential of earning a future stepping stone, financial- and career-wise. I have been so blessed to have been given these opportunities, yet I am hesitant to make the decision that will lead me to my prospective future.

Where do I go from here? What do I want to do? Who do I want to be?

This marks one of the most significant crossroads in my life, in which I will have to choose what will make or undo me. I have never had to make such a major decision before—not the step of being a graduate to a student again—but one far more important.

But truly, at every crossroad there is a cross—literally and metaphorically speaking. There is a cross in ‘crossroad’ and likewise, Christ in life. I know that even as I am standing here, helpless and blind, He will take my hand and guide me to where I ought to go, do and be.

So this is my prayer: Jesus, lead me, teach me and show me to the life You have set out for me; not my will, but Yours be done.

My heart quickens when I see images of the sky and clouds, earth and land, all captured from plane windows. I am beyond excited to be reunited with my parents and my sister, whom I have not seen in the flesh or physically embraced for more than a year. (I wonder if I will burst into tears upon finally laying eyes on them.) Exactly one month from now I will be at the airport, checking in, getting on a plane, looking out the window and being free!, free in my independence and solitude, and in the exhilaration of doing something completely new and in the excitement of seeing my long missed family.

It is impossible to contain in few words how I inwardly tremble in sheer happiness of looking forward to all that is old and new and in embracing this adventure. I will step on American soil once again, in almost more than a decade. I will revisit places been to as a child and explore new ones that I will now see from the eyes of an almost adult, one who will actually appreciate where I am!

I have so many plans and ideas that pop out of mere kernels and explode into full-fledged scenarios in which I spend my two months there productively and joyfully…

(This entry has no proper structure because I am drowsy from too much anticipation.)